I’ve got issues, and I’m pretty sure you’ve got them too (sorry)
I have a whole list of them, but the issue that God’s been dealing with me the most in this season is trust.
If you don’t have trust issues… I really, really admire you.
I, on the other hand have some MAJOR issues with trust.
Honestly, my trust issues have more to do with God than other people. It’s kind of embarrassing to admit, but I really don’t trust God most of the time. Sometimes, I actually trust people more than God…
On the outside, I say that I really do trust Him, but when it comes down to it, my actions say something totally different.
I can’t even begin to count how many times I’ve told God, “Yeah man! I trust you!” but then turned away and demonstrated that that’s obviously not the case.
Specifically, I have a hard time trusting that God really does want the best for me. I doubt that He really wants me to be happy and flourishing. I know this is contradictory to everything we’ve ever been taught about Him, but it still trips me up.
Most of the time I believe that I know what’s best for me, I know what’s going to make me happiest, and I believe that God withholds those things from me to teach me something.
I know I’m not alone. (At least I hope not)
The song, “Pieces” by Amanda Cook is often my anthem when I get stuck in this rut of trust issues with Him. It preaches to places of my heart that I’m unable to preach to when I start doubting the goodness of God.
Because He really doesn’t give His heart in pieces. He doesn’t withhold anything from us that is good. Because He is able to see our lives from the beginning to the end, He knows what is good for us in this present moment, and He gives us that.
One of my favorite verses that reminds me of the goodness of God is:
“For the Lord God is a sun and shield; The Lord bestows grace and favor and honor; No good thing will He withhold from those who walk uprightly” -Psalms 84:11
Every time I read this, I’m reminded that if I’m not running from God and I’m really trying to honor Him, He literally can’t withhold anything good from me. Why? Because that’s a promise that He’s made. And He can’t go back on that. That’s not in His character.
That means that what you and I have, at this very moment, is the very best for us. There is nothing that could be added to this moment that would make our lives better.
You might be thinking… ummmm really? A hot tub would bring me more joy, or maybe the beach, or an extra large pizza.
But although those things might bring us joy, they aren’t the best things for us in this moment.
We may never know why on this side of Heaven, but He knows.
And we have to work on trusting that.
As we start letting this verse sink in and placing reminders in out life that He is giving us the absolute best in this moment, that trust issue can start melting away.
Will it go immediately?
Heck no! I wish!
But every time you feel that trust issue coming back, think about this verse. Think about this promise He’s made.
Realize that He can’t go back on His promises. And count the blessings that you have in this moment.
Work on those issues girl!